Monday, April 27, 2015

Return to Athvala pt. 2: Justice, the Lack Thereof



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I woke up to some kind of noise... someone singing. My ears strained to hear the familiar voice.
Two become one
One made whole
The cycle completes
When thrice angels fall
Awaken now Harbinger
Open your eyes
Take up your mantle
The Devil shall rise.
“Did anyone hear that?” I asked. I felt somewhat embarrassed as I observed the lateness of the night and a few new people standing in camp.
“Hear what?” Bal Vyr asked.
“Are you okay Blackwing?” Harbinger’s voice called out to me. It was good to see he had returned, but I was troubled by what I had heard. The words were spoken as though the Mayor were right next to me, whispering in my ear. I scanned my surroundings once more.
“We did kill the Mayor right?” I asked.
“Yes. By my hands he was slain,” the Goliath reminded.
“I swear I just heard his voice...” I trailed off as I realized how stupid I sounded. Clearly I had just dreamt the poem into existence. Let alone with all that had transpired recently, it’s no wonder I was dreaming non sense.
Everyone else continued about whatever they were doing, paying me no mind. I was later filled in that at midnight we would proceed back to Lake Town. When the time came, I took my spot next to Harbinger as we began our trek toward town. Bal Vyr kept pestering the Goliath about why Garth would need to see us at midnight for our own safety. It would seem if the Thorplewood brother had enacted himself as Mayor that he could make it so that we weren’t criminals. Part of me agreed that that did seem fishy, but Harbinger held such trust in them (and had discussed with them hours before) that surely there was reason for the midnight rendezvous.
We came to the West Bridge to which the Goliath told us to wait back while he made sure it was safe for us to approach. As I stayed put at the foot of the bridge, I watched as he knocked on the gate’s door. Whisperings could be heard, but nothing distinct. As I continued to observe, I caught sight of Harbinger beginning to act funny.
“What? No!” the Goliath suddenly exclaimed. I began to walk toward Harbinger.
“Hey, what’s going on?” I called out. The Goliath turned about, seeming to be undergoing some internal struggle. I narrowed my eyes on him trying to see if I could figure out what was happening. Bal Vyr began to cast a spell to examine the magicks at work as the gap between me and Harbinger lessened.
“Blackwing!” he called out to me as I came within a few feet. His mouth then clamped shut.
“What’s happening?” I demanded. Unable to speak, Harbinger held up a hand to me as though to stop me from drawing closer. I looked toward the gate beginning to suspect that the guards might be the cause of what was taking place. Had they done something to trigger his rage and now he was struggling to keep control? However, with it being night, I couldn’t see past the dark square that marked the shutter in the gate.
“Bal Vyr, can you sense anything yet?”
“Just a moment,” the Drow responded as he continued to concentrate.
Harbinger then stood up straight and reached a hand behind his back to draw his sword.
“Forgive me Blackwing,” the Goliath choked out. My eyes went wide and quickly I pulled my halberd up to defend myself. If I hadn’t acted so quickly, I probably would have been dead from how swiftly he brought his sword down upon me.
“What are you doing!?” I exclaimed as I deflected his sword. Whatever was happening to him left me confused. Was this the work of the mark? I could only hope that Bal Vyr would figure it out quickly.
“Harbinger!” fellow comrades called from behind, reiterating my same question.
“You need to stop this now!” Trickfoot shouted.
“Why are you trying to hurt your woman?” Tornar questioned as he attempted to intercede.
“Guys, there seems to be some kind of dominating spell upon him. I would seem it’s coming from the armor!” Bal Vyr announced. I looked into the Goliath’s eyes and could see a sense of pleading as he remained helpless to the spell upon him. My anger began to bubble under my skin as I realized the Sylphsbane Clade had tricked us- no, tricked him! They had sponsored his armor and now it seemed evident why!
“Harbinger,” I said calmly, though I’m not sure why. It wasn’t like my tone would make a difference with the struggle he was facing, “You can fight this spell. Just keep your focus on me,” I encouraged. I then attempted to fatigue him, thinking if I could zap his energy that perhaps we’d be more successful in stripping him of the corrupted armor.
The Goliath flinched away from me and with swiftness that would suggest my spell had no effect, swung his sword into my side. I felt a rib crack and placed a hand to my bleeding wound. As I fought for breath against the pain, Harbinger implored of us to flee. “Please run before I kill you all!”
“Rip your armor off-” I began to shout when my vision was suddenly splattered with Harbinger’s blood. The crusader finally made his attack on the Goliath and his strike was true. It happened so fast that I stood stunned as the decapitated form of Harbinger lingered in front of me. Soon he slumped to the ground, to which the crusader stepped over him, uttering aloud, “You have evaded Justice for too long.”
“How was that Justice!?” I spat. I stood to my full height and got into Grendel’s face, “He was under a spell! He wasn’t responsible for his actions!” Let alone I had one task to do! One task! Not to let any of my comrades succum to the mark!
“Hey Araja, you know he isn’t really dead,” Bal Vyr interrupted.
“Shut up Bal Vyr! Grendel, if there’s any ‘Justice’ to be had, anyone to blame, it’s the Sylphsbane Clade!” I shouted. My body shook as I managed to restrain myself. I could feel everything about me spiralling out of control and there wasn’t anyone who could hold me together. I fell to my knees next to Harbinger, my sobs escaping me.
“Well, I’m gonna take his armor off-” the Drow began to say when the gate opened. I looked toward it, my rage set. I was gone. My anger and pain took over. I would have killed Grendel then and there, but Bal Vyr was right. With the mark upon us, we weren’t really dead after being killed. Though I loathed the man, Grendel was one of those I was charged to not let die. And so I settled for the guards who now served Garth Thorplewood. They, and everyone associated with them, would die as my soul now cried out for it’s own ‘Justice.’
I flew into action, striking the guards as they came. A few were able to get a hit on me, but my adrenaline kept me going. Abu took a moment to heal me which allowed me to continue with vigor as I fought along side Tornar, Bal Vyr, and Grendel.
Amidst the blood shed, a guard instructed his men to keep their grounds while he sent for the other platoons.
“This might be a good time to flee then,” Trickfoot suggested over the chaos. I ignored him as I pursued another guard. Once I rendered him dead, I looked up and could see what appeared to be a hundred guards making their way toward us. Suddenly Trickfoot’s advice didn’t seem like such a bad idea.
“Perhaps we should leave,” I announced, pointing toward the troops.
“Let them come,” Grendel barked, “Let them taste our vengeance for the betrayal they’ve done to us.”
“Heaven’s you are insane!” I snapped.
“And think about it Grendel,” Bal Vyr jumped in, “These men are just following orders. We ought to figure out who’s responsible and apply Justice like a scalpel to the perpetrator.” Guilt tried to pang at my mind at the Drow’s words.
“Justice should be applied with a hammer!” The crusader retorted.
“There are too many for just the 6 of us to fight off!” I reminded, “And- oh heavens, look at Harbinger!” I stated. The Goliath’s body was contorting in all sorts of ways that was unnatural. It was too unsettling and I felt myself choke up. Part of me was grateful that he was turning because it meant he had a chance to come back again. However, he was decapitated... I could only hope he’d live once more.
“I’m gonna cast some fire to hopefully ward off the guards as Harbinger kills them. If we're lucky he won’t be dumb and rage into it as he attacks the troops,” Bal Vyr announced. He went about lighting the guard house on fire, leaving a portion of the bridge for the demon Goliath to unleash his fury. We all then high tailed it to the woods.
As we ran away, a few minutes passing before the night was rent with a familiar roar. It was stronger than when I heard it back in the Goblin’s cave. We all turned around and through the trees could see an enormous silhouette. Harbinger was even larger than before. He had to have been well above 30ft tall... Heaven knows what’ll become of him and the town, for all I knew, our best chances now laid with the Elves.
After some time, we all came to a stop. We gasped for air as the adrenaline wore off and reminded us of how limited our physical bodies were.​
Though my rib was healed, my chest felt as though something had been ripped from it. It was comparable to when Meryth wasn’t Exalted. How I was left with her blood on my hands, never to see her again. Maybe I’d see the Goliath again, but it was the crusader that turned him into a monster in such a manner that had me convinced otherwise.
“You!” I seethed, walking toward Grendel, “You didn’t have to kill him!” I shouted, hitting his armor. I winced as my knuckles hit the metal, but continued yelling at him, “Did you not hear what Bal Vyr had said!? All we had to do was remove his armor!”
The crusader stood rather still for someone who’s just ran a mile or two. “He carried the taint of Injustice upon him,” he simply replied.
“Your obsession with this notion of ‘Justice’ is so convoluted that I have to wonder if you even know what it means!” I exclaimed.
“Foolish woman! You’ve allowed your infatuation to cloud your vision!” he barked.
“He was under a SPELL!”
“You deny yourself the truth!”
“Do I?”
“He was an agent of Injustice!”
“When is it Injustice when you’re forced against your will!?” I shrieked, “He was helpless. He begged us to flee! He warned us!”
“And all the previous times? When he acted against the people of this town? When he acted against me!?”
I scoffed at the crusader. “So that’s the reason!? He slighted you and therefore death is your solution? Oh Grendel,” I chuckled, “You and your grudges. So where’s my death? I’m pretty sure I’ve slighted you too,” I baited. The crusader took a step toward me, reaching for his sword, when the Srow interveined.
“Araja, we’ll go fetch Harbinger in the morning. I’m sure he’ll be fine,” Bal Vyr said attempting to calm me. I kept my eyes locked on the crusader. Part of me was reveling in the fact he couldn’t harm me.
Bal Vyr let out an exasperated sigh, “We know who magicked him up and we’ll be sure to deal with them,” he continued to explain, “I tell you, those Dwarves in town really have it out for us,” he continued, devolving into his paranoia. Tornar gave a mild grunt. I shook my head.
“That whole town is damned,” I said with an air of defeat. With my anger and sorrow still about me, I then flew up into a tree to mourn in private.
The moon was out, giving a soft glow to the tree tops. In the distance was a reddish glow that I assumed to be where Lake Town was.
I hated the predicament I was in. The relationship that formed with the Goliath was nice while it lasted, having someone that almost felt like family. Someone who didn’t just tolerate me. Now I had to wonder if the few weeks of bliss was worth the pain I was feeling. Would it subside with the blood I sought for payment? Would it lessen if Harbinger returned? I didn’t like how out of control I was with my anger, no matter how much I try to justify it through the crusader's actions. My temper has always been a weakness of mine.​
The feeling of failure was equally crippling. What was to be done? Was it really that bad if only one person turned one more time? I suppose the Raven Queen would have chastised me by now if that were the case...
Movement below suggested that the group began to move further into the woods in pursuit of the Elves. I was mildly surprised that the cleric remained behind.​
“Araja?” I heard Abu call for me, “are you alright?”​
No! I wanted to snap back, I only witnessed my boyfriend’s head get cut clean off!
I managed to hold my tongue before realizing how childlike I was acting. An exasperated sigh escaped me. “I’ll be fine Abu. I just don’t like Grendel,” I muttered.​
“I’m not going to deny that what just happened was terrible and I’m not sure if running away was the right answer either,” (so am I to blame for our retreat?), “Only the Gods know what’s happening in that town to those poor people,” the cleric said to me. I looked to the faint glow in the distance. Harbinger was very much fulfilling the will of the demon we left him as. Would the town be able to defeat him and save themselves? Would the Goliath in time revert back without death’s intervention? It would seem that was how I reverted back. I healed everyone and after a matter of time turned back into myself.​
Still... it was wrong for me to condemn the townsfolk for the fault of the Sylphsbane Clade. If there was any amount of good to be had, it would be to stop Harbinger’s murderous rampage. Once that was completed, then hopefully I would have the strength and force to destroy the Sylphsbane Clade.​
But what about Grendel? Another sigh escaped me. Either I would talk Bal Vyr into frying his good for nothing body or set about my revenge the moment the mark was cured from us. Funny enough, the thought of getting Grendel back (hopefully when he least expected it) gave me great pleasure. So much that I finally flew down from the tree to join Abu.
“Let’s go find those Elves,” I said to him. I began to turn when I felt a hand on my shoulder. I looked back into the cleric’s eyes, surprised by the concerned he was showing for me.
​“Are you going to be alright?” he asked once more. I didn’t want to lie to him, but I didn’t have a solid answer either.
“We shall see,” I said quietly before pressing off after the others.



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Monday, April 20, 2015

Return to Athvala pt. 1


The Lone Hellbred
I followed after the two as they continued to ignore me. Granted Araja was preoccupied with her agenda while Heinul tolerated my presence. It was curious to discover that Sven was the true evil, something I had suspected but now had confirmation.
As I waited patiently, hoping Araja would obtain her freedom, what I was silently dreading began to unfold before me. Heinul announced that they would need to remove each other’s circlet from the other. The parasite had become too much apart of them and now they needed to die.
Araja looked at me with her empty eyes and her smile faint.
“You will be missed Isaac,” she said, “Thank you for always being there. You were always so good to me despite my childish fits.”
I clasped my hands tightly behind my back, to keep Araja from seeing them shake. This was it. She had chosen her death over me. A contrite thanks being all she had ever given me in return for my devotion. I’ve been tossed aside and only now do I see it. My Dwarven friend was right, there was no one for me in this world... I dug my nails into my skin in an effort to steady my voice.
"So this is your choice then?” She nodded. It felt like pieces of me were slipping away. “Goodbye then Araja. I will think fondly of you from time to time."
A single tear escaped each of my eyes. The first tears I’ve ever cried in my four long years of life. Araja nodded and flashed one of her rare smiles toward me. I’d do almost anything, even die, to be her everything.
I watched as she grasped Heinul's circlet and He hers. I watched as He filled her with His holy might and count down from 3. Then the sound of cracking bones filled the air as they purged one another of the cursed circlet. Heinul collapsed immediately. Araja eyes stared off in the distance, wide with shock.
"Save... Harbinger... please," was barely uttered as she gave me one final glance. Her knees then buckled and to the ground she fell.
I made no attempt to catch her. Her final words were of a man from her half crazed ravings. Yet as I looked upon her lifeless body, she was all I could see and I was powerless against her. I never thought I would mourn the death of anyone, but her... I’ll mourn, and what would never have been, for the rest of eternity.
Darkness then swallowed my heart.    
"She was a noble creature, but confused. She will need you to guide her into my rest," the Raven Queen spoke into my mind.
I knew what to do. Though she had broken my heart, she still held its pieces in her hands.
"Araja Eloirakn, the fallen daughter of Heironious. Our time together grows short,” I felt a knot in my throat as I knelt down next to her, "All that is left for you to do is to enter the rest of the ancients. I will aid you one last time." The words felt like someone else was saying them. They were too mechanical.
I clasped Araja's blood soaked hand and leaned back, as if to pull her to her feet. She rose up, wispy and insubstantial, but as clean and whole as the day I met her. Only her broken body remained on the floor to remind me that she was in fact dead. I had to guide her to the Raven Queen if there was any hope of her returning to the grand cycle.
While keeping a hand on her, I made a grabbing motion at the sky with my left hand before waving it in a half circle. The sky wheeled overhead, suddenly revealing stars and a waning moon. Our surroundings slowly fade away into mist, the golden halls of Heironious no longer visible. An archway made of stone came into sight, its interior dark. This was the entrance into the realm of the Raven Queen.
I pointed at the archway and gave Araja a gentle push toward it.
"My Queen is just inside. She will take you the rest of the way, to rest in the halls of your fathers. This is as far as I can go, for it is not yet my time to meet Her. Once given time to heal, you may chose to venture forth again and start as a new life. Perhaps when that happens I will meet you again-” I stopped short, wanting to say more, but my throat seized up. Her eyes looked about as though she were lost and that was when I remembered. She couldn’t reply in her insubstantial form. She may not even be able to understand what I was saying. An injury to the body could disorient the spirit, and her spirit was already confused and damaged.
I guided Araja with my hands until her spirit had entered the archway and vanished from all perception. I once more clasped my hands tightly behind my back to keep them from shaking. I stood there long after her passing into the care of the Raven Queen. Waves of emotion crashing against me like the ocean against a lighthouse. I continued to stand in place as the archway faded back into the mist, not moving a muscle.
However I didn’t see the mist. I saw Araja. I saw her how I remembered first seeing her in the village square of Podunk. My emotions churned as I replayed every memory I had of her to the very end. Then, when there was nothing left to remember, I pulled my emotions around me like a heavy cloak. My rage, anger, and love. I scoured my mind clean with the emotions until nothing was left.
I too died today and all that remains is a shell.
"This... It's almost like a disease. I know soon you will be over the lies. You'll be strong. You'll be rich in love and you will carry on, but no...... you won't be mine." I finally uttered, my last words of love for her. I then grasped at the mist and turn the world back.
Psh, Harbinger indeed. The world will need one to protect itself from me.

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Return to Athvala

“Welcome Araja,” a calming voice spoke to me. It was the clearest words I had heard since... since... well I’m not sure. Everything was blurred still, sounds ebbing in and out. I vaguely remember a red personage once walking with me.
“This way my child,” the woman’s voice called. I followed the sound as it lingered on the air. Bright light illuminated the blue gray fog I walked in. In time tree’s sprang into view followed by grassy hills. Though it felt like a summer day, the colors were dark and dreary, as though the sun had lost most of it’s intensity. I stopped walking and looked about the place I now stood.
“Where am I?” I asked. Movement caught my eyes and a royal looking woman stood before me. She was dressed in black and dark blues. Her black hair was long and flowing and draped about her shoulders. She wore a simple, silver circlet upon her fair head and had a warm smile on her face.
“You are in my realm now and under my care fallen one,” she answered. Though her tone was inviting and warm, the word ‘fallen’ pinged at my heart. I remembered clearly how I was cast out by Heironious... and how I had failed Him. Realization dawned on me that I had died... How though escaped me.
“How did I get here?”
“Your friend Isaac sent you.” I cocked my head. “You needn’t be surprised dear one. You were very special to him and he wanted you to rest in peace.”
I felt the emotions of sorrow and gratitude flood through me, but for once no tears came. It was as though I had become a hollowed shell.
“Araja?” someone else called out to me. I turned and beheld a familiar face.
“Lash?” I questioned as I saw the true form of my once dead comrade. “How?”
The silver haired woman approached me and surprisingly gave me a hug. “Welcome to the Raven Queen’s home,” Lash greeted, “It would appear we both have been freed.”
“Freed from what?” I asked.
“It would seem your death has stunted recent memories,” the Raven Queen mused.
“May I show her around?” the cleric asked.
“Please do.” With that, the Queen went her way leaving me and my comrade alone.
“This way Araja,” Lash instructed. I followed after her, trying to decipher what we were freed from. My thoughts kept wandering to Isaac and the people I traveled with in Athvala. What were they up to now?
“Do you remember the circlet?” Lash asked.
“The one the Raven Queen’s wearing?”
“No not that one,” the cleric laughed, “Else you and I wouldn’t have a place to call home.” Lash looked upon me appraisingly, “I suppose it’s best you don’t remember. But I’m very much interested in what you remember of Cloudbreaker, Grendel, Bal Vyr, and Trickfoot. Were you able to find the Gnome? Were you able to destroy the undead? What about the Druidess? Did you all fulfill her wishes or did you side with the townsfolk?”
I furrowed my brows as I reflected. The names were familiar and as I pondered them, it came back more clearly. I then filled Lash in on what all happened that I could remember, explaining how everyone had turned into their demon, but, unlike her, we all reverted back to our normal selves.
“They said the reason you didn’t come back had to do with Bal Vyr’s fire magicks,” I explained.
“It wasn’t that,” Lash responded.
“When you say we were freed, is that meaning from the mark we bore in Athvala?”
“Basically.”
I became silent as I thought about that. We were freed from the mark, but by doing so, we’ve died.
“Do you think the others will be able to rid themselves of the mark without dying?”
Lash became contemplative, her features becoming serene, if not forlorn.
“It’s hard to say. The longer they have the mark the less likely they’ll survive it’s removal.”
“And if we didn’t survive the removal... surely they won’t,” I muttered. Harbinger came into my mind and I was sad for him. Though if he died, and his Gods were still around, perhaps he would be sent to live with them. Still, he and I would never be. Whatever life I had hoped for was gone. At least this time the emotions played out in my hollowed shell with no substance to hold onto.
“You miss him don’t you,” Lash said suddenly. I gave a slow nod of my head. I would miss the Goliath for eternity, “If we asked, I would imagine the Raven Queen could send you back to Athvala.” I looked at the cleric imploringly, but then reality weighed it’s hand on me.
“What use would it be? I’m dead.”
“True, but it certainly would be nicer than staying here. He might even appreciate the closure to know where you’ve gone. Maybe you can help rid him of the mark so he might live.”
The idea was desirable, but how would I be of help?
“I don’t even remember how I got rid of mine,” I confessed.
“Well, then maybe to make sure the mark doesn’t continue to evolve over them. Keep him and the others from becoming their demon.”
“Actually, that would be useful Araja,” the Raven Queen suddenly spoke from behind me, “My apologies for eavesdropping, but I think you could do good there if you prevent them from dying. The curse will only grow stronger the more they succumb to death.”
At first, my thoughts were muddled. Then the first tangible emotion to take hold where my heart should be was joy. I’d be able to see Harbinger once more... I’d be able to tell him goodbye and perhaps even help him survive the removal of his mark.
“Then send me back. I’ll see what I can do.”


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I slowly woke up to the sounds of people stirring about me. Food was being prepared by Trickfoot and Tornar as Bal Vyr, Abu, and Harbinger discussed about something. Grendel kept his distance, possibly brooding over his misfortune to be stuck with us. I slowly sat up, stretching my arms and wings.
“Hey, you’re awake,” Harbinger said once he took note of me, “Sleep any better?”
A smile broke my lips as I reveled in knowing I was back, but the weight of knowing I was dead bore down on me too. How would I ever explain that to him?
“Uh, yeah. I slept very soundly.”
“No more nightmares about helpful Giants?” he chuckled. I cocked my head, forcing my smile to remain. I couldn’t recall any nightmare other than dying.
“No... none that I can recall,” I quickly said. My mind raced trying to figure out another detail. I was killed elsewhere, away from this group. Why was that? Where had I gone?
“That’s good. I’m about to head off to town now. I wish you could come.”
“Same. Be quick and safe in the mean time,” I instructed.
“Will do,” the Goliath answered before giving me a kiss, “Kuli’gol ananaka.”
“Uil æaer,” I replied. It was fun being able to use our languages freely with each other.
Harbinger then put on an Orcish disguise with Bal Vyr’s rin. Once approved by all that he looked like a half Orc, he bid us all farewell. I then spent the following hours exercising my wings and contemplating how to remove the curse mark. Nothing came of my pondering and so to pass time, I took a nap.

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Monday, April 13, 2015

The Awakening pt. 3: Goodbye


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The sounds of waves crashing filled my ears and a late afternoon sky filled my eyes. I could smell the ocean and feel the sand beneath my body. I sat up and found myself where I left off in the dream. However I couldn’t help but dread as I found myself without Harbinger again.
I assessed myself once more. Sure enough I still had the circlet upon my head, four fingers on my right hand, and none of my markings. I looked about and found no one in sight. The eerie quiet echoed about me and I knew I had to get moving. Heironious’s courts were the highest point in the Kingdom and that was where He’d be, or so I assumed.
Not wanting to confront Him immediately, and needing some time to truly humble myself to forgive him, I walked the forest path. The quiet was almost unbearable. Yet in time, I discovered why the silence went on.
I saw someone laying on the ground. I recognized her as an Angelic, in which I rushed over and was shocked. Who I thought was sleeping peaceably, was nothing more than a dead kin. Her presence looked as though she was resting, but the decay marked her death.
Quickly I continued my trek along the forest path. More bodies began to litter the ground. I began to recognize many and soon came upon hundreds of dead Angelic that I had to stop. This was an abomination! I looked to the Golden City high on the mountain and in my mind cursed Heironious for the evil He allowed, blaming Him for all my friends deaths!
As I cried out of sorrow and anger, a different thought came to mind. How could I have thought He was responsible for this? If there was one thing that rang true in my mind, it was knowing how much Heironious loved us. He loved all his angels! For the first time since my banishment, I felt pity for Him. Erythnul must have turned on Him and now He was in need of my help!
I wiped the tears from my eyes and with more fervor took to the skies. I flew up and out of the trees and began my ascent to the Golden City. More bodies could be seen from above and soon the celestial creatures that once roamed free littered the world below with my fellow Angelic. I began flying over the great lake at the foot of the city, bodies floating in the water. It was there that I heard something.
“Araja! I’m over here!”
I whirled around trying to locate the voice. “Hello?” I replied. A smokey, cloud like figure was making it’s way toward me. I held my ground, flapping my wings and hardening my eyes at whatever was approaching me.
“Who are you,” I demanded, my voice flat as I tried to be brave.
“It’s me, Isaac,” the figure claimed. I looked on in disbelief, but soon the personage was before me and held the distinct features of Isaac. How I wish I could have hugged him! “Come back with me,” he pleaded, “We need to get that circlet off of you before Sven reforms.”
My mouth quivered a little. Go back? I thought, After all the effort to get here!?
Isaac puffed a little as though he had just ran a great distance in a physical body. “This is not where I would have expected Sven to have taken you,” he said as he looked about, “I guess I should have assumed- Araja, are you alright?”
I shook my head. “I can’t go back,” I said, my voice betraying my stoic efforts. He looked at me confused. “I was told to come here. Sven is very much apart of me now and the only way to free myself is to find Heironious and forgive Him.”
The ghostly Isaac gave one of his incredulous looks. “There are very few things that beings ‘have’ to do in this life,” he began, “Heironious might be the path before you, but a friend taught me that there’s more than one way of doing things. Now let me examine your circlet and see what I can do for you.”
My friend then looked about the contraption on my head as I continued to explain myself. “I’m sure you’ve noticed all of the dead Angelic below-”
“Are you sure they’re dead?”
“Yes. And because they’re dead, that is another reason I need to see Heironious. I fear He needs our help. He loves us too much to sacrifice us,” I elaborated, “Now you speak of more than one way, but a Giant from a city I came from sang a song that went like this,” the words came from my mouth once more as though I had known the song all my life ending it with the same promise of being free and no one being able to control me again.
“Hmm, I don’t know if advice from a Giant is that reliable.”
“It’s the best option I’ve got. Unless you have some other idea that we can swiftly obtain, we need to make haste to the city.”
There was a moment of silence.
“Well, from the looks of the circlet, it really has fused with you. And I can’t say I have a better option at the moment. Can you tell me what all you remember since you last saw me?” Isaac said.
“Sure,” I replied, beginning to fly toward the Golden City once more. “Though it’s hard to say. I know we were in France, then I was in a place called Athvala. Ever heard of it?”
“Nope.”
“Well, I was there, but now I’m back.”
“That sounds uneventful.”
“It wasn’t,” I said as the events flooded my mind. How I wish I was just dealing with the mark versus the circlet.
“Well, this is what happened in your absence,” Isaac began. He then went to regail about soul trapped beings destroying Dijon, though he got me out of there in time. He then met some black dragons and they captured me, being the cause behind the circlet on my head. He then obtained a new body through his deity the Raven Queen, met back up with Cortanna (who’s part silver dragon now?) in a city named Pride, which was where I came from!
He continued on talking about Kedra and some good succubus name Penelope. He then ended on Kedra using some great power to save the town and at the same time trying to kill him. My head hurt. It was so farfetched and different from what I knew, that I figured the dream had taken a turn for the worse.
“If you had a body, how are you here?” I finally asked.
“Well, Kedra knocked me out with some spell. I’m not... exactly dead. I think whatever is happening here has something to do with the time I was haunting you as a ghost,” Isaac answered. He then looked at me with earnest eyes. “I woke to hearing your voice calling my name. So I followed it and here you are. I’m glad to see you’re alive. I was beginning to worry I would never see you again.”
I smiled a quick smile at him. Of the companions I first met up with, he was the only one who seemed to care. Part of my heart cringed. What if he loved me and only now I was seeing it? I brushed that thought aside. He was a ghost... he was my best friend.
“It’s good to see you again too,” I managed to say, though my smile had faded.
“So remind me, why is it Heironious is the only option?”
“I’m sure he’s not the only option Isaac. But there’s little hope for me now. How I see it, I only have two paths before me: face Heironious or remain a slave to Sven. Both present likely chances of death, but with my ex God, I might be able to survive,” I explained.
“Right...” Isaac muttered. I could tell he was not thrilled by the idea of my death, but it was something in the making for too long. Whatever fears I had about what would become of me after my death held no weight in my mind. Part of me was ready to receive it... even though I knew that would mean never seeing Isaac, Gemmel, or Harbinger again. At least I would be able to say goodbye to Isaac. May Harbinger forgive me for abandoning him...
“Isaac,” I called out, my voice far away, “do you think it truly possible for Heironious to have willfully been corrupted? Or do you think he was tricked?” I asked.
"Its impossible to say if Heironious was willful or not. I personally think the better question is 'Does it matter?'” he replied. I shrugged.
“I suppose it doesn’t. I still find it hard to believe it possible. Deities may be stronger than us, but aren't they frozen in time? Set in their ways and personality with no option to change their minds?” I asked, not really expecting an answer, “I don't know... I guess I’m scared I'll be disappointed once more, but what's another scar under the skin along side all the others?"
“Regardless of his intentions, the results of his actions are the same,” Isaac stated. He then looked at the bodies littered below, “If it is any small comfort, I think Heironious won't have much time left to continue disappointing you."
“Yeah... it would appear Erythnul had turned on Him. He loves us too much to sacrifice us.”
“Oh? I had assumed something else killed them all. Never thought Heironious would do that-”
“Not Him!” I hissed, “though that’s a haunting notion that something else is here to kill Heironious.”
“Right, right. The whole body merging together is confusing.  Let alone I still don't see why Erythnul would do that either. They're technically his followers if he's manipulating Heironious. Unless Erythnul has become powerful enough to discard Heironious as an ally,” Isaac mused. That idea struck me! The God Wars!
“It could very well be! While I was in Athvala, there was a war that had happened among the Gods and from the sounds of it, Heironious was killed, but nothing was said about Erythnul. I’ve suspected that maybe they had separated...” I trailed off as I tried to remember specifics, “there was something terrible that I think involved the mark... I guess what I’m getting at is Harbinger always suspected his Gods to not be dead, but I never thought that Heironious might have secretly survived! I suppose we’ll find out shortly once we get to the Kingdom.”
“Was this war something Harbinger started?”
I looked at Isaac and a small chuckle escaped me. “No,” I said, a warm smile on my lips, “Though I’m sure if he wanted to, he’d have little trouble. The war was specifically between the Gods. Harbinger was a Goliath I traveled with,” and loved... but I spared Isaac that detail, “Many deities had died and yet our focus was on a mark. Go figure.”
“That reminds me!” Isaac said excitedly, unbuttoning his shirt, “Nerull died and I no longer bear his mark!” he exposed the part of his chest I last saw Nerull’s mark on.
“What? Their mark disappears if they die?” It would make sense why Tornar’s mark of Erythnul was just that and not combined with the forced of Heironious... if He was truly dead.
“Not really,” Isaac replied as he buttoned his shirt up again, “The Raven Queen overthrew him and in turn I now bare her mark-” what is up with Gods and their marks? “So she essentially removed his brand from me. But I do find her more agreeable when it comes to deities.”
All conversation stopped as we flew into the Golden City. The streets were filled with dead Angelic and I did my best not to look, fearing I’d see more of those I knew. Soon we landed in front of the doors to the throne room. They were closed but I willed them open, certain He’d be inside.
Sure enough, there He was. Dressed in His holy robes and sitting upon His throne, head in hand. He was still the very image of Heinul who I saw long ago in a tree. My blood boiled as I looked at the corrupted being. However it appeared He was weeping...
“Welcome my child,” the strange, dual voice called out. He slowly lifted His eyes to look at me. I felt bile work up as my heart sank. “I cast you out, intent on destroying you if you ever returned. Now here you are brave in the face of death, I presume with final words before I send you to join your brothers and sister?”
NO! I screamed in my mind. It was too late though. He confirmed that He had killed them, ALL of them! How had I been able to think He need my help? Am I just that naive and trusting to give evil the benefit of the doubt? I felt my hateful words begin to form on my tongue when in my mind rang:
Forgive your old foes
Bear love for the traitor.
I curled my lips in my anger, but it seemed the answer was before my eyes. Forgive Him, I pleaded within myself.
Why? He has no intentions to change!
But you will finally be at peace, I debated. If that is what it takes to rid you of the circlet, what have you to lose?
My arms were shaking and my vision blurred with tears. To let go of my hate toward my creator felt impossible, but if I had to choose between the two roads before me, my anger would surely end in my death. I took a few deep breathes before kneeling down, head bowed, and bracing my hands on my knees. I then felt my anger deplete with each word I spoke in humility.
“Heironious... there are many things I don't understand, and if you're to kill me, perhaps it's best,” I began, my voice heavy, “I can't bare living in a world where you've fallen so far that you'd kill your own angels. That you would side with Erythnul! I don't understand what Meryth became or why she was who she was when I saw her as someone so innocent. I refuse to believe you did this all willfully and because of that... I forgive you,” the words were bitter, but warmth ignited in my heart. He had made a mistake and I couldn't hold it against Him. Then with more fervor I repeated myself, looking Him in the eyes, “I forgive you!
“I know I've said hateful words in my anger and I am sorry. I am so very sorry. Just come back, please! Don't let Erythnul rule over you like his mark does to those mortals below." The tears fell from my eyes in hot waves. It felt like I was about to enter into eternal darkness, yet I continued to hope most passionately that my deliverance was nigh.
Instead I heard the exasperated sigh of Heinul.
“You poor child. You think you understand everything-”
“I just said I didn’t!” I snapped, but quickly closed my mouth to prevent myself from sabotaging whatever was to happen.
Heinul stood before me and took my hands, lifting me to my feet.
“Had you ever thought about what your brothers and sisters must think? That if any of what you believed to be true about me, that they would have felt similarly and sought after you? To have helped you in your plight against me?”
I furrowed my eyebrows and shook my head. I was selfish like that and typically only thought about my own pain and suffering. My ex God then lead me to the front door of his court, where one could see the rest of the Kingdom... and the bodies that dotted the view.
“They understood the dilemma we yet face. Each one that yielded up their life gave us another day to fight the threat,” His voice caught, and as He continued to explain to me what was taking place, my hatred continued to peel away, “By nightfall I will be no more. These lands might be filled by some other being, similar to how the Raven Queen overtook Nerull’s realm, but I suspect it will become polluted and befouled by the creature whose tendrils have been laced into our body and soul.”
Heinul wiped a finger along my circlet and looked me deeply in the eyes, “That is why we first became bonded, to fight this parasite. And the mark, we had hoped would stir mortals together to help us fight this evil, but we failed. We all failed.”
I then noticed upon His head a circlet of His own. How? I wondered as my heart tore. All my anger had blinded me to the real evil. Because of that, I had to wonder if that was why we failed. Could I have been the key stone that tipped the tides into Sven’s favor?
“As much as it pains me, we both need to come to our rightful end. The parasite is too much apart of us and neither us can live because of that. So shall we?” Heinul asked, tipping His head toward me. This was it. This was my end, or perhaps the ritual that would free me forever from possession...
I looked to Isaac. His eye stared at me, his mouth partly ajar. I gave a weak smile for I wished he didn’t have  to witness this. There was hope I’d survive somehow, but I knew it then that I was to die and become part of the nothingness for eternity.
“You will be missed Isaac,” I said to my friend, “Thank you for always being there. You were always so good to me despite my childish fits,” my smile became endearing as my emotions overcame me, “Give Sven hell for us and may your new deity always be true to you.”
I reached out with my right hand instinctively, wanting to grasp Isaac’s hand or shoulder, but seeing he was some form of ghost, I felt stupid knowing there was nothing to grab onto. So I maneuvered my hand to Heinul’s circlet.
“This is your choice then?” Isaac asked with a firm voice. I looked back to him and gave a nod. Isaac's lips trembled a moment before he went on, his face grave, “Goodbye then Araja. I will think fondly of you from time to time.” A single tear from each eye then spilled over and down his face. I don’t know if I ever stopped crying, but I gave him one last smile without saying ‘goodbye.’ I would have rather said, ‘see you soon,’
I turned my attention back to Heinul and with the setting sun He imbued in me strength. He then counted down from three saying, “Dhroo... Dwa... Aj,” and with a great jerk we pulled the circlets from our heads.
The pain was familiar, I had felt it before, but nothing could have prepared me for what I saw next. I saw my unconscious body being hauled away by 6 black dragons. They put me in a room and were handed a circlet to put upon me. Scary enough, the men who presented the circlet were Harbinger and Bal Vyr! They too wore circlets of their own. It then dawned on me and made sense how all of us were placed together in the metal bowl. While we were under Sven’s possession, we were part of some alternate reality! The mark must represent the influence Sven had over us. The larger it was, the more infused we were with him.
Heinul had long collapsed when I looked to Isaac. My life force was almost gone and I needed him to save him!
“Save... Harbinger... please,” I managed to say before my light went out forever.

The End



But wait! There's more! Alas, as I have begun work on writing Araja's true tale, I have subjected her to another campaign! I had not intended to continue recapping her story, but there have been some amazing character development for her DnD tales, that I felt compelled to start up again! The entries are likely to be more journal-esque due to not wanting to invest so much time into recording sessions and recapping with 90% accuracy to what went down (though I will admit, I can never be as witty or creative as the players I play with). However, to those of you who've enjoyed the read, I hope you find her alter endings and continued tales enjoyable.