Friday, November 1, 2013

Day 65: Happy Birthday Dear Sister


Baer 4th, 4288: 65 Days in the mortal realm

First off I want to say in here, Happy Birthday Meryth. If you were alive with me, you’d be... 282 years old. We were almost exactly 8 years apart. On the 35th of this month I’ll be turning 291... It’s hard to believe I was born nearly 3 centuries ago back in 3997... not much has changed here in the mortal realm other than a higher population of Humans and more incredible inventions like my circlet. I suppose nothing much has changed with me either...
Anyways, woke up this morning ready to get things done. I wasn’t as tired as yesterday, so here was hoping I’d be able to get more done. First I freshened up and put on my dress. I then went down stairs and got a bite to eat. I'm certain my lack of eating was what caused my sudden feeling of illness.
I then went out to Raæin. He was amused by the idea that we were looking for a chicken. We strolled through Hommlet on our way to the forest edge. It all looked familiar from yesterday, but for those on the street, I was a new face since I hadn’t walked around as myself yet. Then again, no one except my party, knew my true self. How I love looking and feeling like I did before ever dying... yet I must confess, not having the wings constantly on my back was missed since I spent well over two centuries with wings. I couldn’t help but reflect on how nice it was to have flown when attacking the bats or when we fled Podunk and traveled to Cortanna’s home town. Yet at the same time, how refreshing to not be such a target of looks since Sardik.
Anyways, my thoughts quickly turned to that of Meryth. I found some flowers as we entered the woods Southeast of Burne’s and Rufus’s tower. I strung them into two crowns; one for me and one for Meryth. It was a tradition after our parents died of the Boqor plague that swept across this realm in 4012. They had passed away the day before Meryths birthday. It was my attempt at making Meryth feel special. Little did I know that that same day Meryth would prove to be more special than I had imagined. She was a Savant Healer. Meryth saved my life and those who were ill with the Boqor. She described it as... ‘I just knew what it was and knew I could cure it.’
Still can’t believe she’d be one to fall prey to the mark...
“Araja, what's on your mind?” Raæin asked. I smiled realizing how lost I had become in my thoughts.
“Oh, just pondering on my sister,” I confessed, “It be her birthday today. And here I have it, my crown of flowers and one for her... though she won’t be wearing it...” I trailed off since it seemed like a subject that only had meaning to me. Raæin kindly didn’t ask more about Meryth and so we continued through the woods.
We walked near some of the rivers in our search for statues. I thought about crossing over one but Raæin did not look the least bit happy about it.
“What’s wrong Raæin? You look like a cat about to get a bath,” I teased. Raæin gave a snort at me.
“I... I feel as though this water is bad. Something about it just makes me feel very uneasy. We’d be best to keep searching on this side of the river,” Raæin said. I gave him a questioning look but he didn’t see it as he lead the way from the river. Maybe he was hydrophobic. Perhaps a past fear that he can’t remember but instinctually dreads.
It turned out to be a good idea that we continued to search the area we were in, for an hour later from the time we spent near the river, we found some statue like animals. It was quite curious to see these animals all frozen, but if Burne was right, Henny was near. About as soon as I had fathomed that thought there was a clucking sound from behind me. I froze and surprisingly gave a little thanks to Heironious that I didn’t accidentally look at the creature.
“Raæin," I whispered, "I don’t know how well you do with animals, but if we need to make a quick escape, can I get a ride?” I asked. Raæin gave a nod of his head. I then placed my hand on him and closed my eyes. I wanted to make sure the ‘chicken’ didn’t try and make sudden eye contact with me.
“Henny, Burne’s looking for you. Stay put and he’ll come get you,” I said in what I hope was a calm voice considering my adrenalin was going. I felt a gentle scratching at my leg. Somehow I managed to not jump and pushed past my nerves, calmly walking away, Raæin leading me toward the village.
Before entering the town, I remembered I wanted to switch out to my blonde elf disguise, but if Raæin was with me... I was pretty sure that would be a dead give away later on... I suddenly felt stupid about the request I was going to ask Raæin.
“Hey Raæin, I need to go see Burne and Rufus alone. I’ve been using a disguise in the attempts to not draw a lot of attention to myself as I purchase big items. I do want to meet back up again to go get some barding for you, so would you like to stay in the woods?” I asked, hoping I didn’t come off too insensitive.
“You’d want me to stay out here with the beast?” Raæin questioned.
“Uh, no. Not in these parts of the woods I suppose. Sorry I didn’t mean to make it sounded like I suggest you stay with the chicken... I definitely wouldn’t want you to turn to stone. Or you could go back to the stables if you’d prefer-”
“The stables would be preferable. I don’t have any desire to be in woods that aren’t my own, though not that I know where those woods would be...” Raæin trailed off. We then continued on in silence. I hoped he wasn’t offended by my suggestion...
Before leaving the woods, I switched back into my blonde elf disguise. Raæin and I then parted ways, I reminding him I'd meet up with him soon. It didn’t take me long to find the bustling, forming tower, nor to spot Burne and Rufus standing about overseeing the work. I walked right up to them, a smile on my face, but didn’t get a chance to say anything before Burne spoke.
“Oh, you didn’t need to bring Henny all the way back with you,” he said bending down to pick up a chicken. I looked at Henny surprised she was there and that she actually was a chicken. I suspected she'd had been a cockatrice.
“I hadn’t realized she followed me,” I responded.
“Here,” Burne said to me handing out a golden chain with tiny charms attached to it, “a thank you for finding Henny. If there’s anything else you need, I’d say come back tomorrow. I’ll need today to prep my store,” he informed me. I gave a small curtsy and thanked him for the gift.
The gift was something I had been interested in getting, but had been hesitant about. It was a very risky item to have, especially considering what my luck with fire has been over the past month. This item could very well take me and a small town out with a bang... The necklace, well golden chain, had charms that contained the fireball spell. If I tossed one on the ground, a fireball would trigger. However if I am hit with fire, the fire could very well trigger all of the charms. There was roughly 10 charms, each varying in size. I knew I had to be very careful with them. I quickly placed them in my havardsack so that they would be better protected.
Before walking away I had a humoring thought in my head. I figured considering the gift he gave me and the disarray that has become of the tower that possibly the charm necklace was the experiment Burne was working on and one of them lit off.
“Was this the experiment that went ary?" I asked. Burne let out a chuckle at the notion.
“No, the cook found one of Henny's eggs and tried to cook with it. Foolish girl. She's lucky to have survived,” Burne said.  Rufus then began on another story that seemed to stem from the cook cooking the wrong egg. At this I made my leave knowing I had given my thanks and there was nothing more these two could provide me with until tomorrow.
I then met back up with Raæin in my normal look. We went to the blacksmith and as we walked in I could hear two guys laughing. Once in, it looked like a son and father partnership. They were having a great laugh about something.The father caught sight of me and through the smoke, directed the boy over to speak to me. His face is covered in ash and sweat and he gave a smile while shaking my hand.
"What can we do for you?" He asked. I looked at the welcoming boy closely. There was something familiar about him. Why did he look familiar though? I certainly haven’t met many people outside of the party since being back in this mortal realm.
"Hi, I was curious if I might be able to purchase or put in an order for barding. I would prefer it to be made of mythril, but whatever your finest and lightest materials might be would do fine as well. Is that something you can do for me?" I asked, trying to be specific without sounding too terribly demanding.
The boy nodded. "We can make just about anything, so long as we have the materials. Is that the beast you'd like fitted with Barding?" the boy asked pointing toward Raæin. I nodded to confirm. "Also,” the boy added, “mithril is a bit rare, the expense will be a bit high. Are there any properties you'd like the barding to have?”
I really wanted to get a nice bit of barding for Raæin but I wanted to make sure I even had enough on me to afford it. We discussed prices and I inquired about fortifying the barding with resistances. The buy was uncertain about the pricing of magically enhancing the barding and pointed toward the man in the back, whose name was Barrok.
"Barrok," I addressed the man, "would you happen to know how much damage reduction and fire resistance would add to total cost on barding?"
Barrok put down his tools and the chain he was working on. He grabbed a rag and wiped at his hands then walked a bit closer to where I was with his son.
“Fire can be tricky. If you want just some basic warding, it's rather inexpensive. However if you' looking for near immunity that'll be a pretty penny to say the least. The same kind of idea for damage reduction,” the blacksmith informed me kindly though he looked a little tired of all my questions of price.
I felt nervous. I really wanted to get the best, but I was certain the best was way above the wealth I had on hand.
“Raæin,” I asked him in Sylvan, “damage reduction, fire resistance or both?"
“Anything to help me forget about the fires of hell would be preferred,” his deep voice answered. I bit my lip. I had to make the choice. I looked back at the boy and once more the thought of I know him came over me.
“Okay, so... what’s your name?” I said, realizing I hadn’t learned the boy’s name. I figured this would help me figure out if I truly did know the boy or not. He looked at me, hesitating while eyeing me with a sense of mischievousness.
"Funny," He spoke, "that you never really cared much about that when you first met me. Of course, I figure now's not that different. If I were as scarred now as I was then, you'd probably still want to kill me. You simply refuse to see beyond the superficial," he said matter-of-factly. He then went back to the forge and called out, “Your barding will be ready in the morning.”
I stood completely dumbfounded. It couldn’t be! But it was! Who else would say such words to me?
“Would you like anything else?” he asked.
Scared about what I was about to say, what I was about to admit was real, I uttered slowly and doubtfully, “Billy?”
"It's not polite to ignore a question when one is put to you so plainly." Barrok snapped. It was firm without malice, like a parent correcting a child’s impoliteness, "Is there anything else you'd like us to forge for you?"
Feeling a bit embarrassed and yet annoyed that my answers weren’t being answered so straightforwardly said, “Um sorry, no.," I then looked around the shop, making sure it was clear before directing my next set of questions at Billy, "But please, are you Billy? Because if you are, I just need to know. Are you free? Free from what I believe to be a cursed mark?”
Billy’s eyes hooded over slightly at the mention of the mark. “I was never beholden to any 'mark',” he said, “I was simply the result of simultaneous raise dead and resurrection spells, one cast by a god, the other cast by a devil. The result was an undead body with a living soul trapped within. The scars on my flesh were merely superficial, much like how a wizard may magically inscribe their own insignia onto a book, but that insignia has no other purpose or function."
"No one you've ever met has been 'marked' as you've been taught,” Barrok jumped in before I could finish processing the information that was being given to me, “It was just one more way for the Devil Erythnul to win followers and get his enemies to kill one another. Everyone ever killed for being marked, was just a normal person who happened to have a devil's symbol scratched into their skin. Some were bad, sure, but most were murdered by misguided fools.”
That last part stung the most. I was misguided... I killed my innocent sister... Heironious comforted me!? I could feel my chest tighten as the ugliness of the past became clearer. I knew I had to go. If there was anything that gave me comfort from this meeting was knowing Billy was alive, though he never actually said ‘yes’ to me. I put a slight smile on my face for I was appreciative of the information.
"Thank you for explaining that to me, that was very helpful. I'll be back in the morning," I said, somewhat rushed. I then made eye contact with Billy and the joy knowing he wasn’t captive anymore overwhelmed me. "It's good to see you again,” I said, withholding his name since part of me felt like saying it aloud again would make him disappear, “I'm glad you're no longer trapped in that body," With that I quickly turned on my heels and headed off with Raæin back to the Inn.
"Say hi to Rekka for me," I heard Billy call after me.
Oh I’ll be sure to tell her alright, I thought to myself as I left the blacksmith. I couldn’t deny the excitement I had at the thought of telling Rekka about Billy. It felt like a weight had been lifted off of me knowing the mark wasn’t as evil or awful as I thought it was… yet in that same instance how sick it made me. I wanted to scream and shout! Why Heironious!? Why would you let such a thing happen? Why didn’t you stop us right away? Why!? Why did you lie to me after my sister’s death!?
As I felt myself loose control, I knew in that moment it would be wise to calm down and carefully ponder the rest of the day about what I had learned. I would be returning in the morning for the barding and that would be an excellent opportunity to ask a few more questions.
I hung out with Raæin for a bit before going in for lunch. As I walked in, I could see Rekka sitting at a table by herself. I quickly went to her, excited about the news I had for her… though part of me was surprised at how thrilled I was considering 4 days prior…
“Hey Rekka,” I said. She didn’t look in my direction. At first I thought she was playing up the blind girl very well. Then I noted her bandages looked filthy again considering she had just gotten knew clothe yesterday.
“Hey,” she responded.
“You know, you ought to go check out the blacksmith,” I insisted. She barely turned in my direction.
“So let’s see… what did you think about that guy Simon? And Peter? Oh and how’s your sister?” Rekka said. I looked at her confused by her response.
“Simon?” I began to say. Then it hit me. My passwords! “Hate the guy, hate him too and dead.”
“Already been there then. Learn anything interesting?” came her reply. My excitement for being the bearer of great news to her were dashed. Apparently she had work that needed to be done there and she happened to beat me.
“Then why did Bil- er, why did he tell me to say hi to you,” I muttered to myself. I then shook my head to shake of the curious thought, “Nevermind that. Well, I'm glad you know he's... alive a guess. They informed me more on the mark. It's still quite a bit to take in. I have some questions I plan on asking tomorrow morning when I go back for Raæin's barding,” I answered.
“Yeah,” she said before saying something I couldn’t understand, “doesn't it? The,” once more unintelligible language, “mark don't mean much.” It looked as though she had received the same kind of knowledge too. I then watch Rekka reach for a cup of water in front of her. She nearly knocked it over and part of me thought she was overacting her blindness while the other part of me was concerned.
“Yep,” I began. I then dropped my voice to a whisper to hopefully not attract any ears, “It was bad enough to think Hei- er, Simon was playing favorites and just being unjust, but... why would he have let us kill so many people, especially those who were innocent? It's sick to think about. If it was known to the God's how mislead we were, why didn't He intervene?” I vented. It wasn't like Rekka was from my era in time. nearly 3 centuries had past.
Then on a more serious note asked, “Are you okay? Your bandages look filthy again.”
“Do they?” Rekka asked innocently, “I can't see them. Can’t see anything for that matter,” Rekka admitted. I watched as she shifted uncomfortably in her chair, as though she could sense I was looking at her with concern, “As to Simon, it just might be that there was nothing he could do about it. You know that those beings you call Gods, they can't come down all willy-nilly and solve everyone's problems. Even they have rules, though they themselves made them, that they can't or won't break. Or at least that's what Bard's stories always say don't they?”
"I understand they have certain rules, but... it just seemed we were very much misguided to which good people were killing good people because they were marked. Besides, certain rules they have to keep?” I scoffed under my breath at the thought, “It just pisses me of to think Simon came down to comfort me when I k-” I almost slipped kill out but thought better of it, “Why comfort me when my sister died? Let alone why did he break his rule about no marked beings in the Kingdom for that other girl who was marked? Like my sister? Either way. The Simon I thought I knew obviously isn't who I thought he was. I guess if anything, I would like to hear what he has to say. But like that'll happen. I can only hope in the morning the blacksmith might be able to answer some more of my questions..." I vented more. I looked at Rekka once more feeling sorry for her and yet feeling weary from the disappointment I was feeling.
“If you want to see Simon again we could just go back to that Portal. You'll be able to find him in no time. You could just walk right up to him," Rekka said, a mix of seriousness and sarcasm in her tone. We sat for a moment in silence. It was pointless for me to vent to her considering our age difference. I admired her indifference toward the Gods, but I felt very disconnected with her.
“So, you can’t see anything you say?” I asked changing the subject, “Do you know why that is?” Rekka leaned in close to me before lowering her bandages. Her eyes looked burned and when she opened them there was nothing in them. Not even the marks. They just looked burned.
"It's the same as always, a whole lot of nothing. But don't worry. It’ll be harder to find me now. Father is helping in out. He's got a plan, at least that's what he told me."
"Father?” I jumped in, “And you've been found? Like, found by your Father? Or... is it the blacksmith?" I was intrigued and curious. How was it Barrok was her father? That was a very interesting thought. Maybe she just found out? But why did she say it’ll be harder to find her now? She was already a master of hiding, was that really a concern of hers being found?
“I don't have a clue about...oh... Father said it was easier to be scryed with the last attempt to fix my eyes. Don't have a clue if anything came of it. My father and the Blacksmith are two different people, they have nothing to do with each other,” Rekka paused, her lips pulling together as she thought, “Araja, are you feeling alright. maybe this is too much for you.” I jerked my head back and furrowed my brows. Too much for me? I thought.
“I'm fine,” I said, “It is a lot of information to process today. But back to what you just said, you had an attempt made to restore your eyes? But now that’s been fixed?” I asked.
“Yes, in the means that they were removed and new ones are being made,” Rekka clarified.
“So will this mean that scrying you will be more difficult now? Must say, it's no fun feeling like people are keeping an eye on you- not to be rude- or deities for that matter.”
“No idea,” Rekka said, once more shifting her weight in her chair as though the topic was unpleasant, “So other than all this ‘enlightenment’ and newly found insight, what else have you been doing? Did you get that chicken?” Caught off guard by her comment I gave a small chuckle, which surprised me a little.
“Yes," I said, "Um, she followed me all the way back even. I think she liked me. I only caught a glance of her. I could have sworn that thing would turn me to stone from looking at it, but I guess Burne was being truthful about her being tamed,” which reminded me that Rekka wanted to know what Burne and Rufus had to offer, “He told me he'd be ready for any business I might have tomorrow, so I still don't know what magic items he has. You could come with me in the morning if you'd like."
"I might glance over his wears..." she said, letting out a little chuckled herself.
There was something about Rekka that made me hate her and yet really appreciate her at the same time. The hate came from the times her fiery temper got out and when she didn’t give a straight answer. Yet in the moment when we did talk how easy it is to like her. As I compare myself to her, shouldn’t I be the mentor? I’ve only lived a couple decades yet there I was  on the verge of another angsty melt down because what I thought to be true wasn’t... It was like nothing changed since I was last here in the mortal realm emotionally for me...
“I think I will venture on my own tomorrow,” Rekka said, breaking me from my thoughts, “See if I can at least get a feel for what he has, but that is tomorrow. Who knows what might happen from now til then with us.”
I decide to eat my meal with Rekka since the feeling between each other seemed friendly enough. After a few minutes of sitting and eating, I remembered Rekka was suppose to be going to Sardik with Isaac.
"Are you and Isaac gonna be leaving for Sardik still then?"
“I actually don't know. I haven't see- er, heard from him since this morning. he might have already left,” Rekka answered. I hoped he didn’t leave on his own. Knowing our group wasn’t in good standing with them, going alone probably would be a very bad idea.
“I suppose if we hang down here long enough we'll eventually I'll see or hear him if he's in town. Otherwise  it's to be assumed he's out of town or in trouble. I would bet on the first since that was what the plan was for you two,” I said.
Luckily neither of us had to wonder about what Isaac was up to. He came back a little while after my chat with Rekka. He explained that he had won an insane amount of magic items off of Elmo (that drunk who kissed Rekka). Elmo had been winning bets for years off of adventurers (something about going to the dwarven ruins and returning without dieing. If they aren’t back in a month he keeps the magic items they wagered).
Through the process leading up and after Isaac winning those items, he had conversed with the Druid Jaroo. The Druid, knowing about the Evil Temple in Nulb and having had Isaac fill him on what the Cleric of St. Cuthbert had said to Gideon, suggested that we have a town meeting with the town elders. That way everyone would be aware of what our party’s task was. I said I’d go and he asked if I would keep quiet. I rolled my eyes. ‘Tis my plan I thought to myself. I told everyone real quick too that I was basically over the God’s because seeing how ordinary they were to us, it just seemed stupid to put them up on a pedestal. Let alone the one I had worshipped with all my heart was nothing but a liar and corrupted.


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We arrived at the town hall by 8pm for the meeting. With my eyes trying to pay attention on the reactions of people around as Isaac and the City Elders conversed I got about this much from it:
The cities spies saw the previous Head Cleric for the chapel of St.. Cuthbert (Y'dey) going toward Nulb. She never returned. It was also known that she had hired the adventurers that we saved in the Dwarven ruins to do some 'searching' for her in the ruins of Nulb, and that they were given a map. The Counsel feared Y'dey has fallen to Evil and suspected that she was attempting to rebuild the cult of elemental evil. The other Adventurers left town a few days ago (all had been resurrected), but our best chance of stopping the cult would be to find the Adventurers, get the map, and see what Y'dey was planning.
The meeting was then dismissed and everyone went home. It was refreshing to have an orderly meeting. No riots, no outburst and best of all no one was killed or made a lycanthrope. So we all returned back to the Inn. The plan was to wait until Baer 6th before going to the temple which I was thrilled since I had the barding to get for Raæin tomorrow… Shoot! I didn't confirm what was to be made nor settled on a price! How much would that piece of work cost me…
All things considered, this was an interesting day. It was on Meryth’s birthday that I found Billy lives free from the mark, that the mark really means nothing, and that Heironeous... is no better than me other than being ridiculously powerful.




Thursday, October 24, 2013

Day 64: An Evil Temple That We Conveniently Are Qualified to Seal?


Baer 3rd, 4288: 64 Days in the mortal realm

We finally are in Hommlet. With the warning that Soap gave us yesterday, and knowing how we had a nac for attracting trouble, Rekka suggested we each had a password. Isaac: would talk negatively about the weather, Jessica: ‘The play is coming along nicely, I hope the weather holds', Cortanna will knock on the door then place her hand on her weapon handle, Rekka: will knock on the wrong door and loudly call out one of our names, and for me: a series of 3 questions and answers (Heironious? Hate the guy. Erythnul? Hate him too. And your sister is? Dead.) It was our hope that if something were to happen, we’d know if someone wasn’t who they were.
Hommlet is quite a pleasant place. Not as grand as Sardik, but it was still busy with life. As we walked the road Isaac took off into a shop with 3 golden ball on the front. The rest of us decided to locate an Inn before splitting up further. We came to one that had a lovely maid painted on the sign.
“Welcome!” we heard. There on the front porch was a man whom I'm not ashamed to consider as being the epitome of a stereo typical drunk, “To the besht playsh fer a good jrink and a good wensh and a good many other things a man could want!" he slurred heavily, "Alo-me ter introdush mishelf. Am Elmo, am the brother of the guy wiv dark hair who's nevuh been around sinsh lasht yer whan he went ter work fer that won guy over thar-ish," Elmo rambled on, waving his hand vaguely towards the distant mountains. Not sure if he meant his brother worked in the mountain or if he worked in one of the cities beyond.
“And am the son of the old folksh who are my ma an pa who yoush shuld call-” His voice faltered as his face turned a vibrant shade of green. The next few moments were spent with his head in a bush as he vomited. Yep, I thought, he was, well is, drunk. He then straightened up and marched over to Rekka, who happened to be the closest, and he planted a slobbery kiss on her cheek and insist we pay him a visit some time.
“Plesh come an I'll givesh you a jrink uv the shtrong shtuff an my pa will be happy fer me ter havesh frendsh that aren't clay bottlesh an mead...an my ma might naht cry hershelf ter shleep over Otish an hish leaving hom-” And Elmo was back to retching in the bushes. This time when he finished he then took off, stumbling and talking to trees.
I already disliked the taste of any alcoholic beverage, but that was another prime example of why I didn’t have an appreciation for it.
The four of us girls went into the building. It was quite quaint. The foyer opened up to a large dining room, with a few doors leading into, presumably, the kitchens and perhaps some assembly rooms. A staircase in the corner led up to the rooms marked by a sign next to them. A number of pretty young women scuttled about the busy dining room, serving the many guests. A man and woman stand behind the counter were overseeing it all with observant but gentle eyes. Upon seeing my party enter, they nod to a young man standing on the side of the bar nearest us and he hurried over. He had an odd look about him. He was wearing over sized gloves and goggles.
“Welcome to The Welcoming Wench!” he proclaimed with a bow. I was a little surprised by the grandiose of him welcoming us. He gave us a rundown of the place; they have nice rooms, standard rooms, and listed the services provided by the young wenches and serving boys (like himself). We each chose to get our own rooms, which made me happy since I’d be able to have a place to get away from everyone if I needed to. Pretty soon we all were left to our own devices. I decided to ask the serving boy if he knew of where I could find a few things like the money exchanger, magical items, and blacksmith. The boy kindly listed off the various locations in great detail so I couldn’t miss them.
With that, I went outside to Raæin. I got him settled in the stable before telling him my plans and that I would come visit him once I was all done. My plan was to use my circlet's powers to full effect. To avoid drawing attention to the wealth I had, I would disguise myself. There were many building with alleyways. in which I could duck into one, make sure it was clear of people, then quickly disguising myself. I would then wait a few minutes so those out on the main road would have time to pass before I reentered, acting as though nothing had happened to me.
My first disguise I chose to use was to shrink myself just a little and make my black hair brown, cropped just above my shoulders. Point my ears to make me look like an elf and dulled my eye color to a dark brown. I altered my nose just enough and add freckles across it and my cheeks in case someone very observant happen to catch on that I shared the same face shape with my disguises. I finished up by changing the colors of my outfit to a white top with a leather wrap and black boots.
I reentered the main road and from what I observed, no one seemed to take a second glance. I walk into the money exchanger, noting the sign of the three golden balls. Sure enough as I step in, I see Isaac finish talking. I smiled in my head knowing he wouldn’t know it was me. He then turned and left, clearly looking into my eyes, only to look away quickly and hurry on past.
“Hi,” I said as I entered. I came to a halt, wide eyed, at the sight of a man in chain mail holding a sword and crossbow with two dogs at his feet.
“He’s there to prevent theft,” the exchanger told me. She looked to be on the latter end of 50, and seemed pleasant, “The name’s Nira, how may I help you?”
“I have some treasure that needs to be counted, what is your service fee?”
“5%,” Nira replied.
“And I know that notes are used within town, however if I need to, will I be able to take with me all of my unused wealth in the form of currency?”
Nira smiled, “Of course. Shall we begin?”
“Yes, but roughly how long do you think it’d take for you to count this?” I asked, placing my Havardsack on the counter. She looked in and seemed to be impressed.
“Just a few moments really,” the exchanger said, pulling down a set of scales. After a few minutes, she wrote down the total. 126,672 gold pieces. I definitely had enough to buy everything I would like to get from here and then have more room to put more treasure in from the sinkhole tomorrow.
“Quite a sum you got there,” Nira said. I gave a nervous smile, but then remembered that she didn’t really know who I was.
“I guess one can’t start saving for retirement too young right?” I quickly replied. Nira looked at me quizzically and I figured I best get going. I made sure I had my notes, subtracting 5% of the sum since that was Nira’s portion. A thought came to me that I ought to get a set of scales and make some business out of fee’s for appraising and counting treasure.
I ducked into a different ally and once more made sure I was alone. I shrunk myself again to 5’ 4”, made my hair long and blond with bright blue eyes, removing the freckles. I then changed the color of my clothes to a pale green shirt with a light brown leather wrap,
After waiting a few more minutes, I then continued on to this tower a ways up the road. The server boy had mentioned this tower was under reconstruction, and sure enough it held that appearance. Earth was dug into and stone were scattered about. He also said I was to look for Rufus and Burne. Once to the sight I inquired about them. I was directed to the main door of the tower, where a pair of men (one tall and lanky, the other short and powerfully built) stood overseeing the project.
“Hi,” I said, feeling hopeful about getting some new items, “ I was told you two are Rufus and Burne?”
“I’m Rufus,” the short, but strong looking man said, “And this here is Burne,” he said, nudging his tall and scrawny counterpart.
“How do you do?” Burne said, rubbing his side.
“Excellent. I was told that you two could help me with some magic items I’d like to purchase,” I began to say. Rufus laughed as soon as I said ‘magic items.’
"I might have known! One band of misfits leaves, and another comes in on their heels."
Burne, scowled at him, "Never mind him," he said, "He's never had much of a mind for magic. Only for steel. As to your request, as you can see we're in the middle of a little, ah, remodeling so-"
"Remodeling?" Rufus interrupted, "The idiot blew up most of our castle with his experiments."
"Yes, thank you, Rufus," Burne stated, though the scowl couldn't quite cover his smile. It was obvious that these two were old friends and a simple matter of a blown up castle would not threaten that friendship. Quite possibly this will give them something to laugh about around the fire.
"Like I was saying, we've had some setbacks recently and my wares are currently in storage while we rebuild. It should only take a fortnight for things to get settled enough for me to be back and ready for business."
Rufus chuckled and then muttered, "Truth is he keeps his stock in a pocket dimension, and his prize chicken who holds the key to said pocket dimension, was last seen shooting across the sky at high velocity, trailing smoke and debris. Looked right like a shooting star,” Rufus roared with laughter, smacking Burne on the shoulder.
Burne grimaced. "Y-yes," he admitted, "But it shouldn't take more than a fortnight for me to find her, and then we'll be back to business. The explosion won't have been enough to harm her, so all we need to do is find the statues…” Burne suddenly gave me a curious look.
"Look, uh, what’s your name?” Burned asked me.
“Araja,” I automatically. Part of me wonders if I ought to have used an alias.
“Araja, as you can see we're quite busy with things here, and I can't really be off looking for Henny, but if you're really interested in seeing my wares, keep an eye out for statues in the forest. That'll be the sign that Henny's in that area. If you find such a place, come let me know and I should be able to take it from there. I must warn you, Henny doesn't like strangers and she's more than capable of handling herself, so don't try to catch her if you see her. Just tell her Burne will be by to get her and to stay put. She'll understand.”
The hairs on the back of my neck perked. I was not pleased by the idea of possibly getting turned into a statue. I was most certain that that was what the chicken would do if I went looking for the statues in the middle of the woods. But then again, it wasn't like I had to catch her. I just had to find the statues before I turn into one right? I felt that would be quite reasonable and simple enough, but I decided to check with Burnes about the ability of his ‘chicken.’
“So all I need to do is find the statues and tell you where they are so you can find her? Will I turn to stone if I accidentally see her?”
“Oh no,” Burnes told me, “She is quite trained and wouldn’t do that unless you tried to catch her.”
“Okay, I’ll do it then.” With that I turned on me heels to head back to Raæin. As I turned, I saw Isaac. Knowing that Rufus and Burne weren’t exactly open for business, I decided I would let him in on the request that was asked of me. As I drew closer to him, I said in passing, “The weather looks quite terrible today doesn’t it?”
Isaac looked at me with questioning eyes. It was weird looking at him rather than down upon him, but it was almost funny seeing how unaware he was that it was me.
“Can I help you?” he asked.
“Actually you can,” I said. I linked my arm around one of his, feeling a little nervous by my boldness, “Could you show me to the Inn?” Isaac looked at me more intently, realization suddenly dawned on him.
“Why yes, it’s this way,” Isaac said before giving the tower one last glance. After a few steps I then began to feel very ill. Like, exhausted beyond belief. It was strange.
“You okay Araja?” Isaac asked. I figured he knew it was me, but I still whipped my head up, “It’s your magical aura,” Isaac quickly added.
“Ah,” I exhailed, “Well I was going to ask if you’d help me look for Burne’s chicken, Henny, but I suddenly feel... ill? I don't know. Probably a little sleep will help. Since it seemed you were headed to the tower, there isn’t any business at the moment, that is until I tell Burne the location of Henny,” I explained. I then told Isaac I could get to the Inn myself. With that I once more ducked into an ally and went back to my ‘before death’ look. It felt kind of weird to suddenly see everything from 6’ 2” again, but that feeling quickly subsided as the tiredness overwhelmed me once more.
I made it back to the Inn and rested for a little bit. When I woke, there was still some lingering tiredness. I decided to go down stairs to see if anyone was out in the dining hall. As I descended down the stairs I caught sight of Isaac and Cortanna returning. They caught sight of me as well to which I went all the way down stairs so I could talk to Cortanna alone. I had been meaning to apologize to her since Podunk's destruction about how I treated her. Conveniently Isaac, as well and Rekka and Jessica who I hadn't noticed downstairs, began to head up the way I came.
“Hey Cortanna,” I said as she started to pass, “Can we talk real quick?” She looked nervous but was kind enough to stay. Once the others cleared I continued, “I’ve been meaning to apologize about how I’ve treated you since the boy incident. That was unfair of me to hold such an assumption, especially seeing how hurt you were from it,” I sincerely said. Cortanna seemed surprised by my words, like either she never thought I would apologize or she was surprised I was apologizing for that. Either way, I definitely felt somewhat better making it known to her I was sorry for judging her character off of an honest mistake.
“Thanks Araja, that was considerate of you,” Cortanna said with a touch of gratitude in her voice, but then it turned to a more haunting tone as she continued, “I never thought when leaving my family and Podunk that I’d become a murderer… I suppose that’s life.” She then hurried up the stairs without another word. I knew her last statement wasn’t directed at me, it truly sounded more of a thought of how she felt about what had become of her life since leaving home. I know I could relate...
All of us were in the Inn and we gathered in Cortanna’s room. It was cozy to say the least. This time when I saw Rekka I realized she had cut her hair short. I was curious by the change. It looked nice enough, but it was sudden… I suppose if she had told people, I wouldn’t have been on that list of those to inform of her decision.
“Your hair looks nice Rekka,” I said honestly, “Why the new do?”
“It was time for a change,” she said matter-of-factly.
I then mentioned my day, talking about the task I’ve been asked to do for Burne and add that an added security measure for myself would be if they saw me disguised and I approach them, I’ll flash my true eye color.
“Whoa, you’re disguising yourself? Aren’t you supposed to be good?” Rekka asked. I looked at her with a look that I could only hope expressed how odd her question was. Of course I was good. Why would disguising myself even remotely come across bad? Sure it’s sneaky from an outside perspective, but I’m part of this party. It should be clear why I was doing that. To keep a low profile on us. It’s not like I question her when she sneaked or walked around invisible invisible like.
“Of course I’m good. Why would disguising myself be bad?”
Rekka gave me a look of ‘she’s an idiot’ before turning her attention to Isaac, “So are we still on for Sardik tomorrow?”
“Rekka! What is wrong with me disguising myself? I’m trying to keep a low profile while out buying some needed items,” I snapped out before Isaac could respond.
“Just as long as you’re not ducking into an ally to do these disguise changes, I suppose you’re just fine. Otherwise people are going to notice someone walking around looking like one person only to walk out of an ally looking like someone different, which will draw a lot of attention.”
I pursed my lips together. It was like she had been following me or something. I was making sure those ally’s were clear of people let alone waiting for the busy street to move on to avoid any one person from catching on. Oh how I wanted to smack that smug face of hers! Then again, maybe I’m just mad at her for pointing out my own stupidity. But was it really? This was a busy city. I’m most certain that I had been cautious all day. Yet, what if she was right?
As I came around, I could hear Isaac answering Rekka’s question.
“Araja has a chicken she’s got to find and it sounded like she wanted me to help her with that. So we can go around noon,” Isaac said.
“No, you can both go. I’ll stay behind. I should be just fine taking care of the chicken. I was hoping to do it today, but I'm not feeling quite myself. By the way, Jessica, do you know of any chicken like creatures that could turn things to stone?” I asked, knowing I probably wasn’t going to get an answer. Once Isaac began to go one about his day, mentioning something about getting a letter at St. Cuthbert, and Jessica remaining silent, I decided to take my leave.
“Where you going?” Cortanna asked.
“I just remembered I hadn't eaten all day," which was true, "I’m going down stairs to get a bite to eat.” I mostly just wanted to be alone until my bitter mood passed.
“Didn’t you get one of those Dwarven rings?” Rekka asked.
“Yes, but the continual taste of mead in my mouth is very unpleasant,” I then headed out of the room with Isaac loudly retelling about the frescoes at St. Cuthbert after me. I wandered down stairs, got a meager meal that apparently came with the price of the room. I also asked for a carrot before going out to the stables to be with Raæin.
“Hey, Raæin. Sorry I didn’t come back right when I was done browsing around the town. Would you like a carrot?” I offered. Raæin accepted the treat. I then sat down in the hay and began to journal. To be honest, being there with Raæin was very pleasant. Like I couldn’t help but feel happy. It was very peaceful and this gloom that I let overcome me seemed to disappear.
“By the way Raæin,” I said, my thoughts suddenly being interrupted by another odd thought for Raæin, “Is there anything you think you might need or want? Help with grooming? Protection? I type of food that is particularly pleasant to you?” As I asked that question, I kind of felt foolish for even suggesting my ideas. Raæin was a Unicorn! The cares of this world probably meant nothing to him, especially the material things that one would get a typical horse... I hoped he didn’t think I’m trying to make him a pet. I just want to treat him like a friend since I felt he was my only ally- well, Isaac too since our little conversation yesterday evening. But still, Raæin was the first to really make me feel like there is good still in me.
“Um,” Raæin, in his deep and earthly tone, began, “I suppose some barding and protections from demons, or other evil things that might make it through my own powers, would be of use. Other than that, I’m fine Araja.”
If that was all he could think of, I would be sure to get the best. Perhaps the Blacksmith had some mythril barding, if they have mythril.
After a time I decided to go back in. I worried that maybe one of them, Isaac actually, would suddenly worry about my lack of return. I'd hate for any of them to start searching for me if it came to that. Once back in the room, I learned that Isaac had gotten an important letter but didn’t divulge on it’s contents. Gideon, who apparently showed up while I was out, informed us that a Temple of Evil, that was supposedly destroyed, was  now ready to be completely sealed. Apparently he was the one in charge of that task, which meant we'd all help. I, however, thought we needed to take more time gearing ourselves up for handling Lupik.
“I feel like I don’t know you any more,” Rekka said. It wasn’t so much out of malice of accusation, but rather confusion.
“Did you ever know me?" I muttered, "Besides, as one might say: marks, and werewolves and evil, OH MY!" I said moskingly, "It seems awfully convenient that we showed up and now we're the ones they want to save the day. From what it sounds like, nothing has happened yet. Granted, it's not like I want to ignore it, it's just there's nothing about it that resonates in me as something that has to happen now,” which was true. From what Gideon said, today happened to be the day that the magic in the temple was able to be sealed? It seemed unrealistic.
“Plus,” I continued since there was more to my lack of motivation to do something about this problem, “is this something just the priest knows about? What if we go in there and fail in sealing this temple? Hello Podunk again right? I just want to be cautious without getting the town's folk paranoid about us. I really would like to not have misfortune follow us, yet on the other hand avoiding the temple will probably not bode well for the town's people too.”
There were faint murmurs of agreement. Rekka muses about how she thought we’re a cursed group. As I thought about it, I’ve been cast out, Rekka and Brier were marked, Isaac’s on a second chance, Gideon, if I remember correctly, from past mistakes was only allowed to where his vestiture and is continually under the scrutiny of St. Cuthbert and Raæin somehow was caught and tortured in Hell... I think Cortanna and Jessica (though she is a werewolf) are the only ones of us who doesn’t have the God’s directly impacting their life. Eh, Raæin too, but again, with his lack of memory to what his life was before hand, what was it that led him to being caught and a rigorous attempt at corrupting him made?
No wonder this group wa so prone to misfortune.
It was settled after a bit of discussion that we’d continue on with our previous plans. Isaac and Rekka to Sardik, though they may pay the temple a visit just to scout it out. Cortanna will be off for a week to take care of some dragon hide. Jessica and Gideon, well I’m not sure what they’ll be up to, but I wouldn’t be surprised if they asked around about the temple to see what they could learn about it.
As for me, well I’ll be having a mini celebration of my sister’s birthday tomorrow. I'll also take care of Henny and hopefully getting some barding made for Raæin.


Day 63: A Curious Map and a Decision Made



Baer 2nd, 4288:  63 Days in the mortal realm


This morning I had woken up feeling particularly good. But those good feelings dashed after our little meeting with Soap.
“Knowing we are a nights rest away from Hommlet, I figured I’d give you guys a little run down of the place just so you’re not taken terribly by surprise,” Soap began. I raised an eyebrow in suspicion of what place we were venturing to if we had to be warned.
"It use to be quite the city," he explained, "About twice the size it is today. It started out as just another farming village, but when the kingdom was divided into Dukedoms a couple hundred years ago, Hommlet found itself right between the two most important dukedoms, and our modern day Cities of Lupik and Calik. Business boomed and the little village suddenly found itself growing faster than any other city in the country. Within a decade it was the same size as either of the duke's cities, and a few decades after it was twice their size. Unfortunately, such prosperity tends to attract unwanted attention. I don't know all the details, but about a hundred years ago a cult was discovered trying to open a portal to the Elemental Plane of Evil. Paladins and Clerics from all over were sent in to fight off the demonic hordes and after several days of hard fighting, the cult was destroyed and their underground temple was sealed.
"Unfortunately for Hommlet and its remaining inhabitants, the taint of the evil made others weary and they stayed away for years, starving Hommlet's economy. It's really only been in the last few decades that Hommlet's begun to make a comeback. There have been rumors of a new evil stirring in the land and, naturally, people have been wanting to point the finger at Hommlet. Lots of adventurers have gone through Hommlet lately, looking for clues. Me and my companions even looked around for a while, but didn't find anything other than a bunch of hard used people who are weary of outsiders and have a big dislike of anything evil or demonic. We might go have a look at look at Nulb, an annexed part of the old Hommlet where the cult was based. There is a sealed Temple there,” Soap said with more excitement, seeming to forget he was intending to give us a rundown of Hommlet and not of the evil relics, “We, my party that is, figure there's a good chance for some ancient relics in the temple that we could salvage. Nothing we'd use for ourselves, of course,” Soap quickly tacked onto the end. He then rifled through his bag and brought out a sheaf of parchment.
“Here,” he said, “I found this in Lupik’s Dukedom. It was just laying around, I swear, with a few others even,” Soap said, putting too much emphasis on 'finding' the parchment. Once he too in our looks, he frowned and rolled his eyes, “We did buy one, at an unreasonable price curse that Cleric and her guilty feelings,” he then trailed off in some mutterings that seemed to be directed at Florence
“I’m sorry... Here’s what I was meaning to show you,” Soap then unraveled the parchment and we could clearly see a map. At the center of the map was a collection of tiny dots, each labeled with a name as followed:


Araja Eloirakn of Celestia (cast-out)*
Raæin of the Forgotten Lands
Cortanna Elvenshrine (a.k.a. Cortanna Paddockson)
Neigh-huh-hehe-hrumph (a.k.a. Fire-That-Kills, Brier)*
Rekka Sangrail*
Bar Wench Jessica
_________(a.k.a. First-High-Priest-Of-Highnulfia, Enslaver-Of-Nations, Isaac)*.


 There were also dots and names for the Rogue and the other folk traveling with us. The little star next to some of our names were symbols too small for us to see.
"It's a useful map," the Rogue continued, proud of the map he had found, "since it'll give you everyone's true name in case they try to give you a false name. It'll also show you nearby roads, towns, and even hidden stuff like lost ruins. That's how we found the Dwarven ruins in the first place. It'll even give you clues about how to get past obstacles and to avoid traps. Yes indeed, quite a useful map. Of course, the map doesn't show non-humanoids very well, so you have to watch out for monsters and things. And the map is completely useless on undead and constructs.
"My last word of advice about the map, only ask it for help directly if you really need it. It can help you out only a couple times a week, but it's help is phenomenal, so don't waste it. You never know when you're going to need help. If ever you're lost, you can ask the map for directions to any location and it will show you, perfectly. Every aspect of every turn in the road will be given to the holder of the map, and that information will stay with them until they have reached their destination. However, the map will cease to function until the location has been reached. Also, if you really get into trouble, or if there's no way for you to get to your destination, you can have the map open a portal to your desired destination. The map will stop working for a few weeks afterwards, but the magic will return eventually.”
We all stood dumbfounded at the generous gift we were given. Isaac questioned why he was giving it to us. Soap said it was his way of thanking us for saving his life, but it almost felt like overkill. Then again I wasn’t about to say no and everyone else seemed to agree. We then waited until Soap was well out of earshot before studying the map some more. Cortanna put her ‘new’ goggles down over her eyes. As she looked at the names more closely, Rekka made a quick comment.
“Okay, this Hommlet city, is a little too much on edge, when it comes to evil cults and such things. Let's try not to destroy it or wreck chaos this time. I would so much love to have a city on my list of visited places to still be there and willing to allow us back. Could we at least make the effort to keep to ourselves?” She nudges Cortanna and looks at me, "Can you two do that?" I bit my tongue, wanting so badly to throw back at her how she was the tipping point on the chaos that broke out in the slums back in Sardik by sicking the people on one of her enemies. How she too needs to be careful. Instead, I just said, “My exact thoughts,” and left it at that. I really hated being so bitter, but it was just annoying being talked to as though I was a delinquent adolescent.
“As long as you are,” Cortanna said back to Rekka without taking her eyes from the map. She then began to tell us that Rekka and Brier have the mark next to their name, Isaac has the mark of Nerull (an evil Deity who hates life) next to his, and next to my name was the mark of Heironious...
“I thought you hated Heironious,” Isaac asked.
“Still do,” I said, but it was as though I was listening to someone else say it, “It could just be the map affiliates me, as an Angelic, with Heironious though it knows I’m fallen. I wouldn’t know why Heironious would even consider me affiliated with him still considering he casted me out.”
“Maybe he’s just letting you throw your temper tantrum and didn’t really permanently kick you out,” Isaac suggested. I looked at him as though he was an idiot, “Araja, just saying. From what I know of Deities, why is it your God didn’t just kill you for being out of line?”
That was a very good question. Why was it Heironious didn’t just take me out? It’s not like I’m doing him any good will here. If anything, I could very well just be messing things up for him. But that doesn’t explain what we as the party have learned about this mark going around. He was working with Erythnul! They were using my sister! Then again, what if there was something I was missing… I couldn’t deny that I suddenly missed home to a certain degree. I missed not being weighed down with guilt. Like that night when He comforted me after I had killed Meryth… it was like the greatest love I’ve ever felt. I didn’t seem like a monster to Him for what he saw was an honest mistake and one that I wasn’t to be held accountable for. I wish my action had saved her from the power of the mark.
With my head flooding with those confusing thoughts, I walked away from the group to have a moment to myself. I made sure I walked far enough away from the group to just let myself cry.
Was I angry? Sad or Hurt? Maybe? I didn't want to believe Heironious was truly corrupted. I desperately wanted peace within myself. What was I suppose to do about this new mark? Am I to do anything about it? I knew I was very confused and felt I carried this burden alone. How certain I was that no one could comprehend my situation. Were there others who were indecisive and uncertain about whether they were doing right or wrong? If Heironious hadn't lied to me, none of this would have happened! Why was it I was even reconsidering Him!? I don’t know who He was any more with the stupid mark and using my sister with Erythnul... All of those thoughts, intertwined with the past, was eating away at the direction I thought I wanted to go with my new life. It was like I was floating in the wind with no anchor to give me direction.
As I hugged my knees, reminiscing on the good qualities of the Kingdom, it then came to me. When we reached Lupik, or any city for that matter that had a cathedral, church, or shrine for Heironious, I was going to do something I thought I wouldn’t do ever again. It felt very right. Just maybe if there was some light to be shed on what was happening in this world… maybe if I should apologize first for being so angry and vengeful… no... well, not yet anyways. If He was corrupted, then he deserved no apologies. But, I must at least try to ask Heironious if he knew what was happening now.
It seemed like a brilliant, but very daunting idea. If Heironious was truly involved I could very well be submitting myself to being marked seeking His counsel... Then again was there anything any of us could do against the mark? I sure didn’t feel like I could take on a Deity let alone 2 of them. Malfeiya was the only being who was strong enough to remove the marks too. I doubted that there'd be another Malfeiya any time soon. Still, I made up my mind. I would go pray to Heironious, hope for some answer and possibly succumb to the mark I had learned to hate for centuries.  Now the question is, would he even visit or answer my questions?
A sound from behind me took me from my thoughts. I looked and was surprised to find Isaac there. I quickly rubbed at my eyes, hoping they weren’t too red.
“What do you need?” I asked, avoiding his eyes.
“Just came to check on you.”
“Well, here I am. I was about to go back,” I said truthfully. I got up and began to walk back.
“Araja,” Isaac said, interrupting my attempt to leave. I froze, keeping my head up at my full height and leaving my back to him. He let out a reluctant sigh, “You shouldn’t be so hard on yourself. It’s so clear you hate yourself for what happened at the ruins and I just want you to know that I know it was an honest mistake. Let it go,” Isaac almost pleaded with me. I slowly turned to face him. A sense of being nagged  came over me, like now it was wrong for me to feel bad about what I had done? Yet in that same moment it was so unusual of Isaac. He actually came out after me to try and make me feel... better? To check in with me? Once more, this tough looking guy showed a softness about him that was easy to overlook. But why did he care?
In that moment I felt I should let him in on my plans since they could quite possibly have a great impact on the party. I also didn’t want his effort for checking in on me wasn’t completely in vain.
“Isaac, I will be seeking Heironious in the Court of the Gods at the next city that has His cathedral,” was all I said. It was then silent for what felt like a minute. It was an awkward comment. How was one to respond to that? Right as I began to move away, heading once more back toward the party, Isaac stopped me with an awkward comment of his own.
“You’re not the only one confused about your purpose Araja,” he said. I looked at him again, curious why he had said that. He pulled at his shirt, exposing a mark, “If I am really here on a second chance, then why am I branded, as though I am destined to fail from the start?”
I hadn’t a clue how to respond. I hadn’t known he was already claimed and from the sounds of it, right from the moment his eye opened to his second life. I gave a silent laugh to myself as I thought about when we had first met. How talking about what he was seemed to bring a sense of panic upon him, especially after seeing how I reacted to the mark of Erythnul and Heironious. 3 years of dealing with his situation and I come along to bollix it all up.
I gave a small smile. I hadn’t asked him to share that with me, but somehow he seemed to know what I was feeling and I now had a sense of not being the only one so confused about what their purpose was. Now all I needed to do was learn to be stoic like Isaac and not let this anger, I’ve allowed, to control me any more. And with that thought, I knew it was going to take time. A long time.
We then met back up with the party. I continued to hang at the end with Raæin.
It's interesting how the past 2 days of travel has left a lasting impact on me... I have to wonder what kind of impact will be left once I’m finally able to pray to Heironious.